I had a pretty darned good day today. A whole lot better than yesterday. I was so depressed and anxious by the time I got home from work yesterday that all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball and cry.
I went to Platt College's graduation today since the last of my friends there were graduating. It's always good to see the staff there. The guest speaker was Colorado State Representative Debbie Stafford. I'd never heard of her before today, even though she represents a portion of Aurora. She was a great speaker and her story made me cry a lot. She's suffered a whole lot more hardship than I ever have and she didn't let it hold her back. I was so moved by her that I sent an email to her office when I got home this afternoon. After the ceremony, I had a really long lunch visit with my friend Chrissy. We sat at Panera Bread chatting for a good 2½–3 hours. It felt really good to have a thought-provoking, intelligent conversation with someone other than Marcus. I really need to get out more. About the only socializing I do anymore is dinner once a week with Mike and Nina and a meal out with my dad once or twice a month. I really don't have much in common with the people I work with and most of our conversations are small-talk.
I'm torn about what to do with this stupid job I have. I only went to work three days last week. Monday was Memorial Day and I totally blew off work on Thursday. It's hotter than crap in my office because we have no air conditioning or blinds on the windows. There was no work to do, so I surfed the Internet for two solid days. Friday I worked on some web coding on my portfolio site trying to get my web skills back up to par. I need to work on that stupid Filemaker database, but it's really hard to work on it when everybody there is totally inconsiderate and keeps interrupting me with stupid stuff (like just yelling out of the blue to break the silence or cranking separate music sources to see who can play it loudest). If I don't get out of there soon, I'm going to be too deep into the cycle and won't be able to leave until mid-July. It sucks that in the three weeks that I've been job-hunting, I haven't even been called for an interview. I think I know one reason why: it's summer and all of these corporations can get by on the cheap by hiring interns. They'll work for free/peanuts for the whole summer until school starts again. A saying I've been pondering lately is "Leap and the net will appear." Should I just give my two week's notice now? That's risky. I figure I'd only have to work 20 billable hours a week to match what I make now with no commuting expense. Maybe I could find something part-time to do to remain sociable and keep learning new skills. I gave a business card to one of my friends today that may have some work that we can collaberate on. I hope something comes of that. I don't know...just thinking out loud.
Oh, well. I'm going to go to bed and sleep on it.
I went to Platt College's graduation today since the last of my friends there were graduating. It's always good to see the staff there. The guest speaker was Colorado State Representative Debbie Stafford. I'd never heard of her before today, even though she represents a portion of Aurora. She was a great speaker and her story made me cry a lot. She's suffered a whole lot more hardship than I ever have and she didn't let it hold her back. I was so moved by her that I sent an email to her office when I got home this afternoon. After the ceremony, I had a really long lunch visit with my friend Chrissy. We sat at Panera Bread chatting for a good 2½–3 hours. It felt really good to have a thought-provoking, intelligent conversation with someone other than Marcus. I really need to get out more. About the only socializing I do anymore is dinner once a week with Mike and Nina and a meal out with my dad once or twice a month. I really don't have much in common with the people I work with and most of our conversations are small-talk.
I'm torn about what to do with this stupid job I have. I only went to work three days last week. Monday was Memorial Day and I totally blew off work on Thursday. It's hotter than crap in my office because we have no air conditioning or blinds on the windows. There was no work to do, so I surfed the Internet for two solid days. Friday I worked on some web coding on my portfolio site trying to get my web skills back up to par. I need to work on that stupid Filemaker database, but it's really hard to work on it when everybody there is totally inconsiderate and keeps interrupting me with stupid stuff (like just yelling out of the blue to break the silence or cranking separate music sources to see who can play it loudest). If I don't get out of there soon, I'm going to be too deep into the cycle and won't be able to leave until mid-July. It sucks that in the three weeks that I've been job-hunting, I haven't even been called for an interview. I think I know one reason why: it's summer and all of these corporations can get by on the cheap by hiring interns. They'll work for free/peanuts for the whole summer until school starts again. A saying I've been pondering lately is "Leap and the net will appear." Should I just give my two week's notice now? That's risky. I figure I'd only have to work 20 billable hours a week to match what I make now with no commuting expense. Maybe I could find something part-time to do to remain sociable and keep learning new skills. I gave a business card to one of my friends today that may have some work that we can collaberate on. I hope something comes of that. I don't know...just thinking out loud.
Oh, well. I'm going to go to bed and sleep on it.
Name: LaDonna
