Tuesday, September 22, 2015

Turning Point?

Had the most disturbing/enlightening dream last night. A bunch of people I didn't really know that well were on a stupid quest for something (no idea what anymore). We kept running into all sorts of issues and there really was no reward for completing the tasks. I woke up angry and frustrated. Perfect metaphor, I think, for my job/life at the moment. Yesterday, I was totally frustrated with the new software and the lack of organized training we're getting, my co-workers that are incompetent and/or lazy (yet will seemingly never get fired) and the pointlessness of what I do everyday (it's just mail, most of which is junk that ends up right in a trash can).

It really is time for find something better to do with my life. Marcus has put a little bug in my head that I've been contemplating for the last week. I've spent all week coming up with why it won't work. Need to squash that little voice in my head and concentrate on the pros of why it will work. I've been talking about doing something like this since college, but up until now, it's all been talk and dreams. I've been scared to make that leap. Next year I'll be 50 - time to make a jump.

I don't want to be like my 70+ year old former co-worker who just passed away and who couldn't retire because of bad choices in his life. I also don't want to be like my mother who never followed her own dreams and died way too early (also frustrated and bitter). I definitely don't want to be my father who never did anything with his life and just sits like a vegetable watching TV everyday, blaming everyone but himself for his predicament.

It's getting harder and harder on me every time I go Homestead North. I actually cried at my desk a little yesterday and had a hell of a time making myself perform my work tasks. Then, when I finally did manage to get a job done, I got an email from the account manager to put the job on hold, they were going to be changing it. It's hard enough to get though the pointlessness of it all without having to chuck it and start over. After that email, I clocked out on a long lunch and almost didn't go back. I get panic attacks almost every morning now on my drive in (both due to the job and the horrible traffic in Denver). I'm still too young to be living like this - especially in a free country where I'm not an indentured slave.

I also want to get back to this...blogging. I don't want it to be the "Blog of Woe" that Marcus once coined it as being, but I haven't felt very positive lately.

Sunday, November 30, 2014

Project 365 #30 - Bible Park Walk

Well, here it is - the last day of November. Can't believe tomorrow starts the last month of 2014. From here on out, Project365 gets tougher because I have to follow my chart to figure out which photo # I'm posting each day. First world problem, I know.

Anyway, I broke down and bought new shoes yesterday. I've been putting it off because I hate shoe shopping and for some reason, stores don't seem to carry 7.5 men's wide shoes. Also, they closed the Famous Footwear location on Iliff/Peoria that I used to prefer. They were running a Buy 1/Get 1 + 20% off if you have the app promotion and of course I could only find one pair. Turns out they'll now ship you a 2nd pair if they don't have them in stock. Yay! Now, once the 2nd pair gets here, I'll have a backup and won't have to go shoe shopping for a long time.

One of the reasons I wanted new shoes is I haven't been on long walks with Marcus & Mr. T since well before I got sick back in August. I promised them that I would take a walk around Bible Park once I got new shoes, so that's what we did today. Marcus was in heaven since it was below 20°F and the park was almost empty.

Saturday, November 29, 2014

Project 365 #29 - T’s Tryptophan Coma

Marcus put some leftover turkey and mashed potatoes in Mr. T's food this evening. I think he's in a Tryptophan coma - he's been like this for quite a while. He's also groaning and belching. I think the poor guy ate too much too fast.

Friday, November 28, 2014

Project 365 #28 - Spiced Tuaca Cider

I honestly can't remember when I first had Tuaca cider, but I do remember making it a few years ago when I had my knitting group over to my house.

Last year, I found these organic mulling spice bags at Whole Foods and now I can make myself a cup whenever I want - like tonight - because work sucks much ass and I really need a drink. smile

I saw a recipe from them in my Facebook feed called Hot Apple Pie (you have to be 18 to click through the link), which is basically the same thing except you put a cinnamon stick and whipped cream on it. I'll have to try that one day when I have whipped cream around.

Thursday, November 27, 2014

Project 365 #27 - Thanksgiving 2014

We weren't going to cook a Thanksgiving dinner this year since we weren't going up to Homestead North. First we were going to go out to eat, but we forgot to make reservations. Next, we were going to get a pre-cooked dinner from Whole Foods, but I couldn't get Marcus to make a decision about which one to get until the day after they stopped taking orders. I ended up cooking a dinner, anyway, which was a bit of a pain as all of my stuff is up in South Dakota and the kitchen in the condo is tiny. I think I managed pretty well. The only things I couldn't make were the cheesecake and my shrimp stuffing. I broke down and bought a pre-made pumpkin pie, too.

BONUS: Since I love this picture so, here's last year's Thanksgiving picture taken at Homestead North:

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Project 365 #26 - Beer Cooking Mag

I was at Whole Foods again today before I went into work (I find I've been doing that to procrastinate going in - I really hate going to work these days), and I saw this magazine.

I must remember to pick this up after the holidays. I really missing cooking and the few recipes I've tried using beer in them have turned out pretty good. This magazine intrigues me.

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Project 365 #25 - KBCO Studio C #26

Ever since Ultimate Electronics went out of business, I wondered who distributed the annual KBCO CD. Since I'm not a regular KBCO listener, I'm not in the loop. Today, while grabbing some food for the day on my way to work, I got my answer: Whole Foods.

I personally have never cared about this, but I know people who do.

Monday, November 24, 2014

Project 365 #24 - T Pouting

I'm in bed trying to relax and watch TV when I'm assaulted by canine gas. I look over and scold T and this is the look I got back.

I have no idea where Marcus is going to sleep when he finally drags himself to bed.