Domestic Geek

So, after burying my head in the sand for the last three months, I finally sat down and figured out how much money I make per month and compared it to the amount of money I need. The picture is not good.

Now that my final student loan has kicked in, I have a whopping $30.75 left after bills to buy food and fuel for the whole month. Since it takes $35 alone to fill up my gas tank once, I'm totally fucked. I can't afford clothes, toiletries, cleaning supplies, oil changes, crafts, books, Starbucks...nothing extra at all. Let's also not forget that I have a $550 Federal tax bill looming that I can't pay. I still have no health benefits and if I have an emergency or an illness of any kind, I'm screwed. I guess when my boss gets back from his business trip, I'll have to tell him I either need to make more money or I've got to find a higher paying job. This is why it is so hard to break away from the pizza business. I keep having that nagging thought in the back of my head that I should go back for just a little bit to catch up. I don't want to be sucked back in.

Add to the problem that Marcus' overtime was cut and we're in a bad place. He was the one providing food.

This was the kick in the pants I need. I really need to do some freelance work and get my own business going.

According to this article, if I want to generate more income, I need to lose weight.Interesting, huh? I wonder if it is because thinner people have more confidence in their ability to get more money, if society pays more for thinner workers or a combination of both. So, an interesting experiment to try, huh? I want more money, let's see if losing weight helps.

Current mood: frustrated
Have you ever done anything really stupid? Like forget to write a $300 electronic payment in your check register and think: OK, I haven't been driving much and when I do, the tips suck ass, but I'm still getting by. I'll get through this. Then you realize your mistake and that even after clearing out your savings account of the money that you owe Marcus you don't have the money to make your car payment and you just stupidly put a printer on your credit card that you realize you really couldn't afford and the dumbass manager at work claims he can't get you anymore hours because he's a total dick and the sales aren't getting any better because the owner is stupid and does't realize his current advertising plan isn't working and you're behind at school and when in the hell are you going to find time to find some more part time work that will fit in with your dough job and school. How was that for a run-on sentence? Yeah, I'm in a great mood right now. I guess I'll be selling alot of junk on eBay this next week.

Dough at work is blowing and getting thrown out again. Could the dumb manager mention this to me yesterday before I made 21 batches? NO. He wants me to cut back on the amount so there was nothing to make today, so I drove all the way across town and wasted gas (and therefore money I don't have) for absolutely no reason.

Then "Friends" totally sucked. I'm tired of Ross being a total imbicile (he's got a doctorite, he can't be that stupid). The Joey/Rachael thing is really lame. Either get them together or don't. I'm starting to be glad this is the last season.

*sigh* I'm going to bed.