Domestic Geek

Man, I really hate that cheery/happy mood icon that goes with the set I use. Someday, when I have time, I'll have to make a different set of my own mood icons. Yeah. When I have time...

Well, just as I thought it would, not being able to keep even water in my stomach for several days led to my body developing a bladder infection. It cost $97 Friday to pee in a cup and get them to give me drugs for a condition I already knew I had. Jerks. I wish you could get UTI medication over-the-counter like you can yeast stuff. I know it will never happen since they're antibiotics, but a girl can dream. Good news is I've kept food down with no nausea for the last two days. Yippee!!!! Eating is good.

I told Marcus a few weeks back that I was finally ready to start letting go of some of the crap that I hoard. I'm a total packrat and it's gotten way out of control. He absolutely did not believe me. I can't say that I blame him, though. I talk a good game, but rarely do I follow through on my plans. Well, not this time. My life is in total chaos and I decided I needed to get rid of clutter in my life. So, I started with the physical clutter. Things have been going in the dumpster left and right. Ancient class notes, out-dated calendars, old sheet music, craft supplies I'll never use, worn out clothes, VHS tapes, cassettes, floppy disks, gifts from people I'll never see again and never cared for in the first place, rickety shelving, tacky decorations--if I haven't used it since we've moved back to Denver, it's probably getting tossed. When it comes time to move again, I don't want to be moving any of this crap again. Better to get it out of my life and out of my way now so I can move on to cleaning up other areas of my life.

While I was going through stuff in the craft room, I came across my "Maggie the Messmaker" cross-stitch kit yet again. I remember blogging about how I was so upset that I had lost the instructions. A quick search turns up that I did that way back on MARCH 19, 2003! Dimensions had sent me new instructions by March 27th. Here it is 2½ years later and I still haven't started on the darned thing! I started pondering this and can't even remember the last time I cross-stitched. I used to do that all the time. I always had a kit in the car to keep me busy should something come up. I can't even remember the last time I did anything crafty at all. I think that's one of my biggest problems right now. I don't allow myself time to do the things I enjoy that keep me sane. Christine at Big Pink Cookie was mentioning The Martha! Show where everyone there had a knitted or crocheted poncho. I'm considering making the crocheted one. I used to have a poncho when I was a kid in the '70s and I LOVED IT! Marcus' sister asked me to make a quilt for her youngest daughter. That's should be fun, too.

OK, I've wasted enough time sitting here. I need a shower.

Ugh, I was wishing I didn't have to go to work yesterday because I'm starting to dread going there and *abracadabra* I'm sick as a dog.

I wasn't feeling particularly well when I left work after the half hour I spent there trying to get the company's mail back up. Mail was down as a direct result of the somebody I'm annoyed with not notifying me of the emails coming in about renewing the web hosting and the company's credit card on file being declined and the subsequent suspension of our hosting. I found the relevent files and changed the MX record, told the owner what I had done, left a note for the art director and went home. About a half hour after getting home I started getting feverish and decided to take a hot shower, I puked on my feet in the shower and then I crawled into bed for a few hours. Once I got up, the other owner (who could've fixed this on Friday if he wasn't off attending Buff Club lunches) had totally ignored what I had done to rectify the mail situation, had totally changed our name servers and our website was still not up. *sigh* I couldn't eat anything all day. I tried some mac and cheese and it ended up coming back up. I was running a huge fever and I contemplated calling in sick to pizza last night, but the fever broke at 2 am and I felt pretty good when I got up at 4. I didn't feel terribly bad when I got to the 2nd job, but after a half hour of sitting in the air conditioning (I keep turning temp up, art director turns it back down), I was freezing and feeling like crap. The fever crept back big time. I made it until 2:30 and I couldn't take it anymore and went home. I ate some chicken noodle soup when I got home and now my stomach is feeling unsettled again. Yay.

Oh, and speaking of crappy work stuff...the losers screwed my pay last week yet again. Labor Day was to be my first paid holiday and when I got my check I was missing those 8 hours. We only have like 13 empoyees left. How freaking hard can it be to get payroll right? Geez. They also missed my birthday. That hurt. For everybody's birthday they get a card and a cake and they totally skipped me over. If there was ever an omen that I don't belong there, that was it.

At least I'm getting to finally watch The Gilmore Girls season premiere. This season looks more promising that last year's. Now I'm going to check out this Supernatural show and try to get warm and not lose my soup. The guy who played Dean on Gilmore Girls, Jared Padalecki, is in this Supernatural show. His character's brother's name is Dean. I bet that's weird for the guy.

It's amazing how having cool bosses makes working so much easier. My new workplace is really neat. Today we had a staff BBQ. I guess they provide Friday lunch on quite a regular basis. The owner actually comes around personally to deliver paychecks on Fridays and thanks you for your hard work for the week. He also brought beer up to the art department to kick off the weekend with the art director and myself.

The only problem I'm having is trying to be too perfect. I need to learn how to let some minor details go. It will come in time, though. At least this work produces something tangible--not like food that will be digested and then gone.

Got the test results back from the clinic—negative. So, still no idea what's wrong. Maybe I'm just doomed to feel shitty. I've thrown over $300 at this problem. I think I'm getting better on my own, but I can't really tell as Aunt Flo came to visit today. We'll see what's going on in 5 days or so.

OK, I'm really pooped. I'm going to bed.

Went to another clinic today, missed two hours of work, dropped $140 I can't afford to spend and still don't have a solution. The doctor took a couple of cultures and a urine sample and I have to wait 48 hours to see if anything grows. Cross your fingers that something does so I can get some answers. I'm really sick of feeling like crap.

On a different note, they picked a new pope today. A talk show host said the event had significant impact on Catholics and non-Catholics alike. No, it doesn't. I'm not religious and I don't give a rat's ass who their pope is. It's just some man who heads (in my extremely cynical opinion) a corrupt organization. Even if there is a god, I doubt very much that just because a bunch of guys claiming to be men of god pick one guy over the rest makes that single guy God's representative on earth. It's all a crock. I don't see how any particular person being a pope has squat to do with my life except that it took over my Starting Over episode today. </rant>

Sorry, just feeling totally bitchy today. I'm PMSing really bad, I haven't gotten enough sleep with the schedule change and that neighbor fiasco this last weekend, my dumb boss showed up an hour and a half earlier than he was scheduled so I had to see him this morning, creditors have been calling my cell mercilessly today and I have no money to pay them, I was late to work because traffic totally sucked, I felt useless there today because I don't know enough to be totally useful and there weren't any projects I could work on by myself, then I had to leave work early and for what? My car was acting up really bad today, I feel like shit, no television to watch because yesterday's Medium was a repeat and the pope pre-empted SO and Gilmore Girls tonght sucked. All my eBay auctions ended today and nobody bought anything. Oh, and we're out of food. Grrrrr.

I know this will all get better eventually (like in a week after my period is over and I get used to the new routine). I'm just frustrated in the meantime.

Also, I miss my afternoon nap.

I couldn't take it anymore today. I sat bawling this morning because the the pain and the totally icky feeling I have. I actually won free passes to see Queen Latifah's Beauty Shop movie for this evening (I never win anything), but I can't go because I can't go more than 30 minutes without running to the bathroom. So, I broke down and went to Planned Parenthood and got me some antibiotics for this stupid UTI. I hope they work. What really makes me mad is I called there two weeks ago and was told on the phone it would cost $90 plus the cost of medicine. I was also told I couldn't be seen that day (Friday), I would have to wait until Tuesday. That's why I ended up going to that other clinic. Well, today I just walked in there, it cost me $23 and was out in less than 30 minutes. If I had known that, I would've been in two weeks ago and saved myself $100. *sigh* I hate Planned Parenthood's call center. They suck.

Watching: Star Trek Enterprise