Domestic Geek

So, the first preseason game of the year was last Friday and, being the good Bronco fan that I am, I watched. Who are these guys? There are so many new names that I don't know a thing about them. Granted, I was a little distracted last year knowing I was going to lose my full-time job and then actually being let go. I spent most of November and all of December in a horrible depression. Previous to that, I was working 65 hours a week or more trying to keep myself afloat (I obviously failed). I don't remember much of that seven month period. I've also been side-tracked during this training camp. I need to get with the program!

The weird thing was watch #87 running around and getting slightly sad realizing it wasn't Ed McCaffrey. What's it been, like three years or something since he retired? Geez.

Well, there's another game this Saturday against Tennessee—Go Broncos!

OK, so here's an example of how out of control my life has gotten:

I'm going through a box of old VHS tapes seeing if there is anything I still need and I came across a tape that I had made of Stephen Spielberg's Amazing Stories episodes on the Sci-Fi Channel. I never got a chance to watch this tape after I recorded it...until today. It has a commercial for Cabin Boy—a movie that came out in 1994! LOL

This is one problem that things like Tivo and PVRs have eliminated. I no longer have stacks of unlabeled tapes sitting around with no clue what's on them and no easy way to find out other than FF through them.

Damn, how did it get to be 11:38 already? Didn't Marcus just leave for work like a half hour ago?

I'm going to miss Starting Over when the fall tv season starts. I can't believe all the time in my life I've wasted with soap operas. I caught Days of Our Lives one day last week and I said to myself, "Geez, what a waste of broadcast air...I can't believe I used to care about these story lines." Soap operas are stupid.

Anyway, while I couldn't sleep last night, I had a small realization: I think one of the reasons I never get anything accomplished is I resent the unpleasant things I have to do (or should be doing). I have lots of hobbies that I want to do, yet I know I should be doing other responsible things. When I start to do those other things, I get resentful because I'd rather be doing my hobbies and then stop doing those as well. It's a vicious cycle that results in me doing absolutley nothing. It's immature. It needs to stop and I need to allow myself time for play while facing stuff I don't want to do. I need to find a balance in my life. One of the ways I used to avoid this whole scenario was to go shopping. I'd buy stuff I didn't want or need just to avoid facing the inner struggle. Lately, with no money to spend, it's been television and Harry Potter fan fics that have been fulfilling that role.

So, my plan is to do an hour of stuff I have to then an hour of stuff I want to do. I'll let you know how it works out.

Man, I hate when I have a movie I want to see and say to myself, "I need to put that in my Netflix queue," but when I have the Netflix site open in front of me, I can't remember what the heck the movie was. Grrrr.