I'm going to miss Starting Over when the fall tv season starts. I can't believe all the time in my life I've wasted with soap operas. I caught Days of Our Lives one day last week and I said to myself, "Geez, what a waste of broadcast air...I can't believe I used to care about these story lines." Soap operas are stupid.
Anyway, while I couldn't sleep last night, I had a small realization: I think one of the reasons I never get anything accomplished is I resent the unpleasant things I have to do (or should be doing). I have lots of hobbies that I want to do, yet I know I should be doing other responsible things. When I start to do those other things, I get resentful because I'd rather be doing my hobbies and then stop doing those as well. It's a vicious cycle that results in me doing absolutley nothing. It's immature. It needs to stop and I need to allow myself time for play while facing stuff I don't want to do. I need to find a balance in my life. One of the ways I used to avoid this whole scenario was to go shopping. I'd buy stuff I didn't want or need just to avoid facing the inner struggle. Lately, with no money to spend, it's been television and Harry Potter fan fics that have been fulfilling that role.
So, my plan is to do an hour of stuff I have to then an hour of stuff I want to do. I'll let you know how it works out.
Anyway, while I couldn't sleep last night, I had a small realization: I think one of the reasons I never get anything accomplished is I resent the unpleasant things I have to do (or should be doing). I have lots of hobbies that I want to do, yet I know I should be doing other responsible things. When I start to do those other things, I get resentful because I'd rather be doing my hobbies and then stop doing those as well. It's a vicious cycle that results in me doing absolutley nothing. It's immature. It needs to stop and I need to allow myself time for play while facing stuff I don't want to do. I need to find a balance in my life. One of the ways I used to avoid this whole scenario was to go shopping. I'd buy stuff I didn't want or need just to avoid facing the inner struggle. Lately, with no money to spend, it's been television and Harry Potter fan fics that have been fulfilling that role.
So, my plan is to do an hour of stuff I have to then an hour of stuff I want to do. I'll let you know how it works out.
Name: LaDonna
