Domestic Geek

So, I'm all alone today. Normally, I'd be ok with that. It's making me feel blue today, though.

Marcus is out with a pack of guys from his old place of employment. A former co-worker of theirs is in town for the weekend and they are going to go stomp around up in the mountains. It's drizzly today, so he ought to enjoy that. Marcus loves the rain! Marcus invited me to tag along, but I didn't want to hinder their "guy bonding" (none of the other guys are bringing their SOs).

My poor old dog fell in the kitchen last night and couldn't get up. I found him this morning spread-eagle by the refrigerator in a puddle of his own urine. He must've been really scared. I wished he would've barked or whined or something to get my attention. He's worn out from trying to get up. I'll have to try and give him a bath later when he recovers. Poor guy. I'm not sure how much longer he's going to be with us.

I want to try all of these cool things I'm finding for Expression Engine, but I can't until I can afford to upgrade mine. yay. Oh, well...I need to make a new layout, anyway.

I am all crampy and bloated today. Part of me feels like crawling into bed and staying there all day. The other part of me won't let me because my to-do list is huge! I'm thinking the bed side is going to win here shortly.

OK, so here's an example of how out of control my life has gotten:

I'm going through a box of old VHS tapes seeing if there is anything I still need and I came across a tape that I had made of Stephen Spielberg's Amazing Stories episodes on the Sci-Fi Channel. I never got a chance to watch this tape after I recorded it...until today. It has a commercial for Cabin Boy—a movie that came out in 1994! LOL

This is one problem that things like Tivo and PVRs have eliminated. I no longer have stacks of unlabeled tapes sitting around with no clue what's on them and no easy way to find out other than FF through them.

Damn, how did it get to be 11:38 already? Didn't Marcus just leave for work like a half hour ago?

I'm going to miss Starting Over when the fall tv season starts. I can't believe all the time in my life I've wasted with soap operas. I caught Days of Our Lives one day last week and I said to myself, "Geez, what a waste of broadcast air...I can't believe I used to care about these story lines." Soap operas are stupid.

Anyway, while I couldn't sleep last night, I had a small realization: I think one of the reasons I never get anything accomplished is I resent the unpleasant things I have to do (or should be doing). I have lots of hobbies that I want to do, yet I know I should be doing other responsible things. When I start to do those other things, I get resentful because I'd rather be doing my hobbies and then stop doing those as well. It's a vicious cycle that results in me doing absolutley nothing. It's immature. It needs to stop and I need to allow myself time for play while facing stuff I don't want to do. I need to find a balance in my life. One of the ways I used to avoid this whole scenario was to go shopping. I'd buy stuff I didn't want or need just to avoid facing the inner struggle. Lately, with no money to spend, it's been television and Harry Potter fan fics that have been fulfilling that role.

So, my plan is to do an hour of stuff I have to then an hour of stuff I want to do. I'll let you know how it works out.

Man, I hate when I have a movie I want to see and say to myself, "I need to put that in my Netflix queue," but when I have the Netflix site open in front of me, I can't remember what the heck the movie was. Grrrr.