I've been in a little bit of a funk this morning. Laura writing about our CollegeAmerica experience this morning in conjunction with just finding an old digital diary I kept at that time (things I couldn't/didn't want on my blog because it was too personal and friends and family read it) made me realize really how stagnant my life has been. That whole period of my life was six years ago and things are just as bad, in fact they are worse, than they were then. I knew then that I was in a bad rut. I kept telling myself what I needed to do to get out of it.
Why am I so afraid and resistant to the changes I need to make to really get what I want and be happy? I've written before about how I believe that your thoughts create your reality. I catch myself in the midst of negative thinking all the time. I wish I knew when I started doing that, but it needs to stop right now. I look at all the stuff I need to do around here and think, "I'll never get all of this finished." So, I never start and it never gets finished. I think, "Nobody is going to ever want to hire me again" and I create that. "I'll never have the money to do..." whatever it is and I don't have any money. I know thinking positively is a practiced skill. I have a lot of good in my life and the only thing stopping me from getting more good things is me.
I've decided to start another blog where I can start documenting the progress and changes I'm making. I will not allow woe there. I'll link to it when I get it up and running. I'm thinking of using wordpress so that I can become more familiar with that platform. I still have dreams of doing some kind of my own business. Making blogs pretty is fun. Once I find a day job, maybe I can do some freelance blog design as extra cash. I don't want to do it as my sole source of income.
As for good news, I have an interview on Monday at Marcus' place of employment for their prepress department. Although Marcus at one time said we could never work for the same company again, this could work. He wouldn't be my boss and my hours might possibly be different from his. I definitely wouldn't see much of him. So, send positive job-getting vibes my way, please. Thanks!
OK, I've got to go check the mail for my last unemployment check and go get some rabbit food. I'll be back later!
Why am I so afraid and resistant to the changes I need to make to really get what I want and be happy? I've written before about how I believe that your thoughts create your reality. I catch myself in the midst of negative thinking all the time. I wish I knew when I started doing that, but it needs to stop right now. I look at all the stuff I need to do around here and think, "I'll never get all of this finished." So, I never start and it never gets finished. I think, "Nobody is going to ever want to hire me again" and I create that. "I'll never have the money to do..." whatever it is and I don't have any money. I know thinking positively is a practiced skill. I have a lot of good in my life and the only thing stopping me from getting more good things is me.
I've decided to start another blog where I can start documenting the progress and changes I'm making. I will not allow woe there. I'll link to it when I get it up and running. I'm thinking of using wordpress so that I can become more familiar with that platform. I still have dreams of doing some kind of my own business. Making blogs pretty is fun. Once I find a day job, maybe I can do some freelance blog design as extra cash. I don't want to do it as my sole source of income.
As for good news, I have an interview on Monday at Marcus' place of employment for their prepress department. Although Marcus at one time said we could never work for the same company again, this could work. He wouldn't be my boss and my hours might possibly be different from his. I definitely wouldn't see much of him. So, send positive job-getting vibes my way, please. Thanks!
OK, I've got to go check the mail for my last unemployment check and go get some rabbit food. I'll be back later!
Name: LaDonna
