Current mood: 
lonely
Warning! Lengthy, rambling post follows:
It's times like this that I hate Marcus being a tech support kind of guy (and the weekends when he's on call). I guess they had a major power outage where he works and the backups on the servers didn't last long enough or something, so he's stuck there until everything is booted back up and running properly. Good thing I didn't make dinner before he called. At least I'm getting some time to post stuff. I've really been neglecting this poor thing.
Yesterday majorly sucked.
I've been having a hard time dealing with the fact that I'll probably never be a mother (at least not while I'm with Marcus). I find out that yet another acquaintance of mine is pregnant. Sad thing is that I don't think she really wants to be a mother even though she and her husband have been trying for over a year. Their marriage has been in trouble since day one and I think she was hoping that if she gave him a child (even though she can't stand babies), he'd fall down and kiss her feet. Well, that didn't happen, so in addition to the normal pregnancy hormone craziness, she's pissed to boot.
Then the mail came. I got a jury summons and the hospital bills from when I cut my thumb open. If they billed correctly, that little fiasco is going to cost me over $900! I hate how the government and insurance companies have got health care so fucking screwed up. If I had known it was going to cost that much, I would've stitched my own damned self up and put some super glue on it. You'd think for that kind of cash, they could've stitched it so it wouldn't scar. Nooo, I have a huge scar with absolutely no feeling on the end of my thumb. I am so pissed about this. Having to pay $900 to fix my car I could swallow, not for this.
I want to learn how to knit. Does anybody know how or know of a good resource to learn? My mother hated knitting and she tried to teach me, but I never really got the hang of it. This was sparked when I was digging around in my craft room and came across some of mom's old needles. I also want to get some quilling supplies. That'll have to wait, though. I'm also going to really learn to play the guitar. I took a class in college and don't remember squat about it. Finding my old friend today made me really miss being musical.
I couldn't bring myself to go to school today. I'm so freakin' depressed. I don't have any ambition or creativity flowing through me right now. I'm so bummed and burned out. If they offered these darned web classes more often, I'd take a leave of absence. I also have to decide by Friday if I want to continue with the Bachelor's program. I'm torn because I want the classes, I just don't know if I'm willing to invest the time and money. My final project for this class was due today. I just can't bring myself to work on it. Maybe if I get a good night's sleep and get the dough done early (so I don't have to see the asshat manager), I'll be in the mood to finish it by Friday. I don't even care if I get a crappy grade anymore. That is so unlike me. I'm the one who normally wouldn't sleep for two days to make sure I met a deadline.
I need to get into some sort of excercise routine. I know that sitting on my butt all the time is not helping with my mood. Since I haven't delivered pizzas in well over a month, I'm not getting any excercise at all. I think I'm going to start a weight-loss blog on my school break.
Hey, has anybody notice the "Day by Day" cartoon I have at the bottom of the blog? I love that cartoon. Not as much as Foxtrot, but it's still pretty cool.
Well, it's 10:00 and he's not home yet. Damn, I totally forgot to eat dinner. Too late now. I guess I'll go to bed and get a fresh start tomorrow.
lonelyWarning! Lengthy, rambling post follows:
It's times like this that I hate Marcus being a tech support kind of guy (and the weekends when he's on call). I guess they had a major power outage where he works and the backups on the servers didn't last long enough or something, so he's stuck there until everything is booted back up and running properly. Good thing I didn't make dinner before he called. At least I'm getting some time to post stuff. I've really been neglecting this poor thing.
Yesterday majorly sucked.
I've been having a hard time dealing with the fact that I'll probably never be a mother (at least not while I'm with Marcus). I find out that yet another acquaintance of mine is pregnant. Sad thing is that I don't think she really wants to be a mother even though she and her husband have been trying for over a year. Their marriage has been in trouble since day one and I think she was hoping that if she gave him a child (even though she can't stand babies), he'd fall down and kiss her feet. Well, that didn't happen, so in addition to the normal pregnancy hormone craziness, she's pissed to boot.
Then the mail came. I got a jury summons and the hospital bills from when I cut my thumb open. If they billed correctly, that little fiasco is going to cost me over $900! I hate how the government and insurance companies have got health care so fucking screwed up. If I had known it was going to cost that much, I would've stitched my own damned self up and put some super glue on it. You'd think for that kind of cash, they could've stitched it so it wouldn't scar. Nooo, I have a huge scar with absolutely no feeling on the end of my thumb. I am so pissed about this. Having to pay $900 to fix my car I could swallow, not for this.
I want to learn how to knit. Does anybody know how or know of a good resource to learn? My mother hated knitting and she tried to teach me, but I never really got the hang of it. This was sparked when I was digging around in my craft room and came across some of mom's old needles. I also want to get some quilling supplies. That'll have to wait, though. I'm also going to really learn to play the guitar. I took a class in college and don't remember squat about it. Finding my old friend today made me really miss being musical.
I couldn't bring myself to go to school today. I'm so freakin' depressed. I don't have any ambition or creativity flowing through me right now. I'm so bummed and burned out. If they offered these darned web classes more often, I'd take a leave of absence. I also have to decide by Friday if I want to continue with the Bachelor's program. I'm torn because I want the classes, I just don't know if I'm willing to invest the time and money. My final project for this class was due today. I just can't bring myself to work on it. Maybe if I get a good night's sleep and get the dough done early (so I don't have to see the asshat manager), I'll be in the mood to finish it by Friday. I don't even care if I get a crappy grade anymore. That is so unlike me. I'm the one who normally wouldn't sleep for two days to make sure I met a deadline.
I need to get into some sort of excercise routine. I know that sitting on my butt all the time is not helping with my mood. Since I haven't delivered pizzas in well over a month, I'm not getting any excercise at all. I think I'm going to start a weight-loss blog on my school break.
Hey, has anybody notice the "Day by Day" cartoon I have at the bottom of the blog? I love that cartoon. Not as much as Foxtrot, but it's still pretty cool.
Well, it's 10:00 and he's not home yet. Damn, I totally forgot to eat dinner. Too late now. I guess I'll go to bed and get a fresh start tomorrow.
Name: LaDonna
