Domestic Geek

My good friend, Traci (from college - UNC), and I went out for lunch today. We were supposed to go yesterday, but a little too much partying Monday night had her feeling under the weather. I have the best time when she and I get together. I really need to get off my duff and spend more time with her. She has so much energy and is so motivational. She has got an amazing memory, too. She always talks about the stuff we did then that I don't remember at all. She was telling me about how she respected the frankness and confidence I had then. I lost that somewhere down the line. I have absolutely no confidence in myself anymore. What caused that? The gaining of almost 100 lbs., the horrible breakup with my ex, the failed teaching career, the bitter seclusion I put myself in after my mother's death, a combination of all of the above? *sigh* Anyway, she wants me to design a web site for her business. She's a technical writer. That should be cool. She recently got herself a motorcycle and took riding lessons. I am soooo jealous. I've always wanted a motorcyle. Marcus isn't too keen on the idea, but I've decided it's something I'm going to own one day.