It hit me hard this morning how much deep shit I've gotten myself into.
I'm trying to remain positive. Really, I am.
After all the reading I've been doing on The Law of Attraction and manifesting, I know that my negativity has gotten me to this point. I pretty much asked for all of this on both conscious and subconscious levels. I wish I could get to the core of why I am so angry and why I sabotage myself. It's hard for me to maintain friendships. I'm so reclusive and withdraw from things and people so easily. I want to be left alone, yet I crave validation and acceptance. I'm feeling so lost right now. I am starting to doubt myself again. I feel myself slipping into one of those deep depressions that I go into every so often where my whole existance seems pointless. What is my passion? If I never had to worry about money, what would I want to do? What would make me happy? I...just...don't...know.
I've read that meditation can help you find your purpose and find peace. I've been unable to truly disconnect from what is going on around me. My brain is so full of thoughts that I can't seem to turn them off.
I'm trying to remain positive. Really, I am.
After all the reading I've been doing on The Law of Attraction and manifesting, I know that my negativity has gotten me to this point. I pretty much asked for all of this on both conscious and subconscious levels. I wish I could get to the core of why I am so angry and why I sabotage myself. It's hard for me to maintain friendships. I'm so reclusive and withdraw from things and people so easily. I want to be left alone, yet I crave validation and acceptance. I'm feeling so lost right now. I am starting to doubt myself again. I feel myself slipping into one of those deep depressions that I go into every so often where my whole existance seems pointless. What is my passion? If I never had to worry about money, what would I want to do? What would make me happy? I...just...don't...know.
I've read that meditation can help you find your purpose and find peace. I've been unable to truly disconnect from what is going on around me. My brain is so full of thoughts that I can't seem to turn them off.
Name: LaDonna
