As Russ pointed out, it’s been almost two weeks since I’ve posted. I’ve had a lot on my mind lately and am trying to sort through it all. To not be all woe all the time, I haven’t felt like posting here. Something major needs to change in my life and I’m not quite sure yet how to make that happen. Maybe I need some of these:
Seriously, though, after the hell of the last week, one thing is clear—I’m not going to get ahead in my present situation. I have all of these dreams and they all require capital to get going. I can’t get any money whatsoever set aside, especially now that I have a car payment again. Don't get me wrong, I love my Baja. Having that car actually represents a goal achieved, but I’m tired. I hate working every day of the week. I hate not having the energy (or the money) to go have any fun. I hate having to get by on five or six hours of sleep if I actually want to see Marcus. I hate the stress of trying to juggle when bills are due with when money is supposed to come in.
I hate the increased crime and bad things that happen in and around Aurora. Random people get shot on I-70 at Havana and along I-25. Shootings at the Aurora Mall. Gang problems, dead bodies, homeless people, illegal Mexicans. I'm sick of all of it.
I had a whole list of stuff I was going to rant about—work problems (both jobs suck ass), politics, health issues, neighbor problems, etc., but I’ve changed my mind. Bitching and moaning isn’t going to change any of it. I’m becoming a woman of action. If I post here less frequently, it’s because I’m working on stuff to turn my life around. I’m tired of being in the rut. Time to stop digging and start climbing out.
Seriously, though, after the hell of the last week, one thing is clear—I’m not going to get ahead in my present situation. I have all of these dreams and they all require capital to get going. I can’t get any money whatsoever set aside, especially now that I have a car payment again. Don't get me wrong, I love my Baja. Having that car actually represents a goal achieved, but I’m tired. I hate working every day of the week. I hate not having the energy (or the money) to go have any fun. I hate having to get by on five or six hours of sleep if I actually want to see Marcus. I hate the stress of trying to juggle when bills are due with when money is supposed to come in.
I hate the increased crime and bad things that happen in and around Aurora. Random people get shot on I-70 at Havana and along I-25. Shootings at the Aurora Mall. Gang problems, dead bodies, homeless people, illegal Mexicans. I'm sick of all of it.
I had a whole list of stuff I was going to rant about—work problems (both jobs suck ass), politics, health issues, neighbor problems, etc., but I’ve changed my mind. Bitching and moaning isn’t going to change any of it. I’m becoming a woman of action. If I post here less frequently, it’s because I’m working on stuff to turn my life around. I’m tired of being in the rut. Time to stop digging and start climbing out.
Name: LaDonna
