Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Wed
15
Oct
2008

Contemplating Where I Want to Be

Thanks to this crappy economy, nobody else is hiring right now. So, a couple of weeks ago, I swallowed my pride and basically begged to keep my job. Even though I hate what I do everyday with almost every ounce of my being and it gives me nightmares and insomnia, it's better than being unemployed, especially right before the holidays. I've made it my own personal policy not to discuss anything with my supervisors ever again. If I tell the truth, it gets used against me. I'll show up for work, try to do my job despite being untrained and using poor equipment and leave. No more going above and beyond. It's obviously not a trait valued there.

I know that I need a change, though. Here I sit, after three whole days off from work, still so sore that I can't stand up straight and my feet hurt so bad I can barely walk. Nobody should be made to work 12+ hours standing on a hard concrete floor. Granted, my being obese factors a lot into the pain I'm experiencing, but even my skinny co-workers go home being so sore they can't move. Not cool.

Business is also down. I wonder if any of us are going to have a job in the long run there. We'll see, I guess.

I'll be honest that the things going on in the world right now have me majorly concerned. Makes me wonder if anybody else has read Atlas Shrugged. The United States is becoming a Socialist country, one piece at a time. Personal responsibility and accountability are nonexistent. Everybody is looking to the government to solve their problems (created by that same government, mind you).

I'm wanting more than ever to move somewhere where I can become self-sufficient, life off the land and totally check out of this madness.