I've decided to take a module off from school. I'm so burned out that I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown. The module lasts five weeks and then we had a two-week summer break coming up, so I'll get seven weeks total to get my life in order and on-track. I've already been off for a week and have decided that I really need to find other employment. That is the thing that is stressing me out the most. I worked five nights last week and made a whopping $102 (when 5 days normally nets about $200). It's not going to get better anytime soon, either. Not only did the head manager hire another driver (a friend of his that comes and goes as he pleases), but we found out that the dumbass owner hasn't been putting out the mailings that he said he had and has now left for a two-week vacation. We had the slowest Saturday we had ever had this past weekend. Not good. So, I'm going to work on the old resume this afternoon (after I finish painting the shed) and take it to the placement director tomorrow and beg her to find me some other work. Even if I can only find something part-time and just dump the delivery part of the job, I'll be better off. Then I can go back to making the dough in the middle of the night when nobody is there and the ovens aren't on.
I'm grateful about one major thing, though. I'm sure glad I have Marcus. The women at work constantly gripe about their husbands/boyfriends and they seem a little miffed when I won't join in with the male-bashing. Honestly, I don't have much to compain about. I know he truly loves me, no matter what. It amazes me that after 11 years of being together, we still have great conversations. We can also be totally comfortable sitting in a room together saying nothing at all. We still have our own separate interests (ie, I'm a crafter, he mountain-bikes) , but we find time to do stuff together. I used to be depressed that he wouldn't marry me, and once I threatened the "Marry me or I'm leaving you" (he offered to help me pack), but as time goes on and more and more people that I know are getting divorced, it's not as important. I know he stays with me because he wants to, not because he has to. *sniff* I'm getting all sentimental and teary thinking about all this. I'm just glad I found him.
OK, well, I've got to get moving. I can't waste my whole time off in front of this computer!
I'm grateful about one major thing, though. I'm sure glad I have Marcus. The women at work constantly gripe about their husbands/boyfriends and they seem a little miffed when I won't join in with the male-bashing. Honestly, I don't have much to compain about. I know he truly loves me, no matter what. It amazes me that after 11 years of being together, we still have great conversations. We can also be totally comfortable sitting in a room together saying nothing at all. We still have our own separate interests (ie, I'm a crafter, he mountain-bikes) , but we find time to do stuff together. I used to be depressed that he wouldn't marry me, and once I threatened the "Marry me or I'm leaving you" (he offered to help me pack), but as time goes on and more and more people that I know are getting divorced, it's not as important. I know he stays with me because he wants to, not because he has to. *sniff* I'm getting all sentimental and teary thinking about all this. I'm just glad I found him.
OK, well, I've got to get moving. I can't waste my whole time off in front of this computer!
Name: LaDonna
