I'm glad that I still have a few readers left. Thanks to those that commented AND...
Thanks to Colleen for alerting me to the problem that nobody could comment. When I upgraded Expression Engine, apparently I needed to change the path to the captcha images from a relative one to a full server path. Who knew? Since I never bothered to log out to see what regular visitors see, I wasn't aware there was a problem. Sorry.
Now, on to the post (WARNING - WOE AHEAD):
I'll be honest here — life has been pretty much blowing for me lately. The new position at work sucks much ass. Twelve hour shifts and working weekends stink no matter what job you're doing. I no longer trust any of my supervisors/owners/managers. We will no longer have full paid benefits as of October 1st. I've got a bad attitude and now I need to do my least favorite thing in the world: job hunt. My brakes need fixing. I dont' have the energy to do housework. Our last rabbit, Neo, died recently and now my hamster will probably be dead by the time I get home from work. I really miss having dogs, but promised myself I wouldn't get any while we still live here. The area we are living in is getting scarier and more depressing by the day. I slept a grand total of 4 hours last night because my insomnia is back full force.
I've been trying to suck it up and not complain here so as not to have the "Blog of Woe" as Marcus so lovingly referred to it, but it is what it is.
It really hit me yesterday at work as I was bawling my eyes out in front of all my coworkers and struggling with every ounce of my being not to grab my purse and walk out the door that I need to change this. I've been telling myself that if I can only hang on until X, Y and Z, then I'll figure out something else to do. Why? Obviously, my situation now is not working. Why is it so hard for me to find a better opportunity? I'm smart and talented, why am I wasting those being unhappy and miserable? Except for the fact that I continue to put up with it all, I deserve so much more from my life than this.
It's a good thing today is only a half day at work. I've got a lot of things I need to do and set in motion while my ire is up. I just know I can't keep going on like this...I'm not really living.
Thanks to Colleen for alerting me to the problem that nobody could comment. When I upgraded Expression Engine, apparently I needed to change the path to the captcha images from a relative one to a full server path. Who knew? Since I never bothered to log out to see what regular visitors see, I wasn't aware there was a problem. Sorry.
Now, on to the post (WARNING - WOE AHEAD):
I'll be honest here — life has been pretty much blowing for me lately. The new position at work sucks much ass. Twelve hour shifts and working weekends stink no matter what job you're doing. I no longer trust any of my supervisors/owners/managers. We will no longer have full paid benefits as of October 1st. I've got a bad attitude and now I need to do my least favorite thing in the world: job hunt. My brakes need fixing. I dont' have the energy to do housework. Our last rabbit, Neo, died recently and now my hamster will probably be dead by the time I get home from work. I really miss having dogs, but promised myself I wouldn't get any while we still live here. The area we are living in is getting scarier and more depressing by the day. I slept a grand total of 4 hours last night because my insomnia is back full force.
I've been trying to suck it up and not complain here so as not to have the "Blog of Woe" as Marcus so lovingly referred to it, but it is what it is.
It really hit me yesterday at work as I was bawling my eyes out in front of all my coworkers and struggling with every ounce of my being not to grab my purse and walk out the door that I need to change this. I've been telling myself that if I can only hang on until X, Y and Z, then I'll figure out something else to do. Why? Obviously, my situation now is not working. Why is it so hard for me to find a better opportunity? I'm smart and talented, why am I wasting those being unhappy and miserable? Except for the fact that I continue to put up with it all, I deserve so much more from my life than this.
It's a good thing today is only a half day at work. I've got a lot of things I need to do and set in motion while my ire is up. I just know I can't keep going on like this...I'm not really living.
AHOY, THERE!
LUDO—Love Me Dead
Name: LaDonna
