Domestic Geek

I've hit another brick wall. I'm doubting myself, my whole reason for being, what I truly want out of life. Why do I have one of these every so often? It's so frustrating.

Is there a new virus attacking the Internet today? My Lycos mail account will not be available until afternoon tomorrow. Amazon is not working, either--they have an error page up.

I had the absolute freakiest dream last night. Marcus and I were walking down a street when we came upon a large park. It looked like an outdoor wedding was taking place. As we came upon the lattice arch, I saw that a large black hearse had crashed into it and had crushed the bride, groom and minister. As we continued on, it looked like a funeral procession had made a wrong turn, drove through the ceremony and killed everyone in attendance. Crashed cars were scattered everywhere and everyone there was dead. The weird thing was I was more worried about having left our bunnies outside in the yard (which I never do, anyway) than I was about the horrific scene I had come upon. I woke up about 1:30 am after this dream and was so weirded out, it took awhile to go back to sleep. I'd sure like to know what's going on in my subconscious that caused a dream like that.

The dude Marcus works with soldered my iPod port back on today and it's WORKING! (For now, anyway.) The guy told Marcus he couldn't guarantee how long the soldering would last. Hopefully, if I'm really careful, it will last until I can afford to get me a new 30GB one.

Lycos mail has been down for most of the afternoon/evening. I wonder if they got taken down by a virus or something. It's not like them to do "maintenance" during the day, during the week. It's usually mid-morning on the weekends and they usually give advance notice. I really hope I didn't get any important email.

I've got so much work to do, but I'm soooo damn tired lately. Planned Parenthood discontinued the pill I was on and they switched me to something else. I wonder if that has anything at all to do with it. Probably. Also being angry at work doesn't really help. I noticed something today. Our company colors are red and black. Angry colors. I've been staring at the color red for years. That's can't be helpful for my state of mind.

Well, I think I'm going to turn in early and hopefully get an early start on it all tomorrow. G'night.