Domestic Geek

Current mood: melancholy
I went to the cemetary yesterday. I got to work and found I just couldn't be there, so I headed South on Sheridan to hit I-70 to go home and next thing I knew, I was at Fort Logan Cemetary where my Mom is buried. I hadn't intended on going there and, honestly, I haven't been there in many months. Today is the fifth anniversary of her death and she's been on my mind alot lately. I cried so hard while I was there that I gave myself a doozy of a headache that I couldn't shake the whole rest of the day. It's so weird that some days the pain of missing her is so great that I can't function, even after all this time. I've been thinking alot about my poor dad today. A man shouldn't lose his wife when she's only 52 years old. Sometimes life is just so damn unfair!

Found the funniest thing at this site:

Oh, yeah. I forgot to mention that I got a ham from the Honey Baked Ham Store for New Year's dinner. YUM! I read that pork was lucky to eat for New Year's Day and I figured it couldn't hurt. Ha!

Sorry there have not been any posts lately. It's been SSDD and have just not been in the mood the be a broken record. Sales at the stores are always down around the holidays, but the bonus from the owner always offset the difference. Without that money this year, I was in a little bit of financial shock. On top of that, the last few years I have gotten extremely depressed around the holidays. Five years ago my mother went into a diabetic coma right before Thanksgiving and died on January 4th, two days before her birthday. She and I really got into the whole holiday thing: baking, decorating, etc. It has been hard to get into the whole holiday spirit without her around. This year was especially tough. Part of it was the fact that the weather was so nice that it didn't seem like the holiday season, part of it was that my Dad was visiting my sister in California, and part of it was the whole work fiasco. We got the tree decorated on December 23rd, I made a cheesecake for my friend's party, and that was about it this year. No cookies, no lights, nothing. Here are a couple of pictures of the little bit of holiday spirit I mustered at the last minute:





Then after Christmas I got really sick. Booo. I thought I was going to hack up a lung. Anyway, I was going to take that time to work on the old blog, but Blogger had some major issues. Something about their servers getting hacked and then not being able to access the servers and then not being able to edit my template. The guy who runs this thing was out of town and couldn't get things fixed right away. I got so frustrated with the whole thing that I just decided to catch up on my reading. I'm working on Stephen King's Dreamcatchers right now. I guess I'm going to have to find someplace to host my blog where I can use Greymatter or something. Freeservers doesn't allow cgi scripts. I have a feeling that this blogger thing is getting too big for this one guy to handle alone. I know I can't gripe much because its free, but I really need to explore other options.