Feeling a little dreary today. It's cold, it's cloudy and I've got cramps. Yuck. I'm tempted to go crawl back into bed and warm up.
My boss is psycho. He got pissy with me yesteday because the client's ad he wanted me to update used fonts not installed on my machine and I asked on which machine the ad had been created so I could either do the revision on that machine or copy the font to my machine. He snapped at me, "Nevermind, I'll make the changes myself." Geez, like it's my fault you've got different fonts on all your damned machines. You're also not a designer, so I know you couldn't do it yourself. If you could, you woudln't need to pay us. Loser. Can't wait until I don't work there anymore.
I rented those Firefly discs to check out. I've gotten through one episode and I'm not impressed so far. In fact, I'm quite bored by it. If I haven't changed my opinion by the time I'm though with the first disc, I'm sending both discs back and removing the rest from my queue. Time is too precious to waste on stuff that doesn't interest me.
All right...I'll think I'll head over to The Container Store instead of going to bed. I need to see how much it costs to get some racks to better utilize space in my cabinets. I'm tired of all of the wasted space above my mugs.
The list this week is not pleasant, but some sad truths I need to face.
I can't find clothes. Right now I'm a 26. Sears and Penney's sizes stop at 24. Even if I can find any sizes bigger, the clothes are UGLY!
My thighs rub together. It chaffes and gets irritated. It's just plain yucky. That's where my pants always wear out first.
I can't put my arms straight down to my side.
My belly table. I caught myself using my stomach as a writing desk and then later to hold my plate while eating lunch. When did I start doing that and why didn't I notice until today?
I can't tie my shoes. I can't tie my shoes unless I put my foot on a chair. I used to be able to stand one-legged like a crane to tie my shoes, but I can't now. I can't even cross my legs to tie it that way.
I'm tired. Carrying the weight of a whole second person is doing damage to my joints and I'm freaking exhausted all the time.
Sleep is becoming more difficult. Not only does it cause really bad snoring, which is waking me and Marcus up, I have a hard time getting comfortable. The other night I actually felt pain from the weight pushing on my chest while on my back.
Jewelry. I'd like to be able to wear bracelets or necklaces again. Necklaces look stupid because they draw attention to the fat rolls under my chin.
A pretty face. I'm actually quite pretty under all this fat. I'd like to see her again.
It's an excuse. I use my weight as an excuse not to do all kinds of things. Not meeting people. Not having friends. Not having a good job.
Breathing. I've noticed that I can hear myself trying to breathe. A person shouldn't have to struggle that much for a deep breath.
My image. I don't think people take me seriously because I'm fat. Hell, I don't take myself seriously.
My life span. Every day I carry around this extra weight is less time I'll have to live.
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For reasons I can't go into here, I'm not at work yet. I'm really not wanting to go there anymore. I think I'm allergic to the incense he must burn or something. Either that, or there's mold/mildew in the basement where we work. I expressed my frustration with working there to the old teacher that got me the job. She doesn't blame me one bit for not wanting to stay. I did tell her I will stick it out until the publication goes to print so as not to get her in a bind. It turns out that is not until the first Friday in October. So, a little over two weeks away. I was originally told Sept. 22, then the last week of September. Nobody there can get their stories straight. Grrr.
I need help from all of you out there. My resume was sent to a screen printer on Monday. I really, REALLY want to work there. It's very close to I-70 so on a good day, the drive will be less than a half hour. I sent a follow-up email on Tuesday with some samples of my work. Now, I just need to be called in for an interview. That's where you guys come in: Concentrate all of the positive energy and thoughts/prayers you can spare my way for me to get this job. Thanks in advance for your help!
I got an email from a place that the placement woman had sent my resume to last week:
Thank you for responding to the production artist position at xxxxxxxxxxxx. We received your resume and will be contacting you within the next few weeks to let you know what further action we would like to take. We appreciate your interest and look forward to speaking with you soon.
Um, ok. The next few weeks? How long do you expect me to stay underemployed? This is so stupid. The holidays are coming up , people. My unemployment checks will run out sooner than later. I want to work NOW!
At least I've got the season premieres of The Office and CSI tonight. I can't wait for this evening.
Weird Al is releasing his new album, Straight Outta Lynwood, on September 26. He released his new video through YouTube. The video is in the extended. It's for a song called "White and Nerdy." That song is totally hilarious! It's a parody "Ridin' " by Chamillionaire. Check it out.
They see me mowin’
My front lawn
I know they’re all thinking I’m so white and nerdy
Think I’m just too white and nerdy
Think I’m just too white and nerdy
Can’t you see I’m white and nerdy?
Look at me, I’m white and nerdy
I wanna roll with
The gangstas
But so far they all think I’m too white and nerdy
Think I’m just too white and nerdy
Think I’m just too white and nerdy
I’m just too white and nerdy.
Really really white and nerdy.
First in my class here at MIT
Got skills, I’m a champion at D&D
MC Escher - that’s my favorite MC
Keep your 40, I’ll just have an Earl Grey tea
My rims never spin, to the contrary
You’ll find that they’re quite stationary
All of my action figures are cherry
Steven Hawking’s in my library
My MySpace page is all totally pimped out
Got people beggin’ for my top eight spaces
Yo, I know pi to a thousand places
Ain’t got no grills but I still wear braces
I order all of my sandwiches with mayonnaise
I’m a whiz at Minesweeper - I could play for days
Once you see my sweet moves you’re gonna stay amazed
My fingers’ movin’ so fast I’ll set the place ablaze
There’s no killer app I haven’t run
At Pascal, well I’m number one
Do vector calculus just for fun
I ain’t got a gat but I got a soldering gun
Happy Days is my favorite theme song
I could sure kick your butt in a game of ping pong
I’ll ace any trivia quiz you bring on
I’m fluent in JavaScript as well as Klingon
They see me roll on
My Segway
I know in my heart they think I’m white and nerdy
Think I’m just too white and nerdy
Think I’m just too white and nerdy
Can’t you see I’m white and nerdy
Look at me, I’m white and nerdy
I’d like to roll with
The gangstas
Although it’s apparent I’m too white and nerdy
Think I’m just too white and nerdy
Think I’m just too white and nerdy
I’m just too white and nerdy
How’d I get so white and nerdy
I’ve been browsin’, inspectin’
X-Men comics, you know I collect ‘em
The pens in my pocket, I must protect ‘em
My ergonomic keyboard never leaves me bored
Shopping online for deals on some writable media
I edit Wikipedia
I memorized Holy Grail really well
I can recite it right now and have you ROTFLOL
I got a business doing websites
When my friends need some code, who do they call?
I do HTML for ‘em all
Even made a homepage for my dog
Yo, I got myself a fanny pack
They were havin’ a sale down at The Gap
Spend my nights with a roll of bubble wrap
Pop, pop, hope no one sees me
Gettin’ freaky
I’m nerdy in the extreme
And whiter than sour cream
I was in AV Club and Glee Club and even the Chess Team
Only question I
Ever thought was hard
Was do I like Kirk
Or do I like Picard
Spend every weekend at the Renaissance Fair
Got my name on my underwear
They see me strollin’
They laughin’
And rollin’ their eyes ‘cause I’m so white and nerdy
Just because I’m white and nerdy
Just because I’m white and nerdy
All because I’m white and nerdy
Holy cow, I’m white and nerdy
I wanna bowl with
The gangstas
But, oh well, it’s obvious I’m white and nerdy
Think I’m just too white and nerdy
Think I’m just too white and nerdy
I’m just too white and nerdy
Look at me, I’m white and nerdy
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