Domestic Geek

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Tom is my only friend, too. LOL

I've had nothing to say here lately. As a matter of fact, I'm totally bored with the Internet, too. I don't know why. I look at my link list, hit a couple of sites, then I'm done.

I do have a humorous story from work.

One of our clients is a vacuum shop owner who is a total practical joker. When his sales rep brought me his proof on Wednesday, it said my ad was crap and it totally needed to be redone. I panicked because there was no notes as to what he didn't like, what needed to be changed, etc. As I'm having total heart failure, she pulls the "Real Proof" out from behind her back and I started cracking up! He loved the ad! I had totally forgot who I was dealing with or I would've seen through the "fake proof" thing. Oh, well. I really needed a good laugh.

I'm getting several responses from clients claiming to love my work. I guess I really am good at this! I've gotten permission from Head of Graphics to put some ads in my portfolio, so as soon as that gets up, I'll point you guys to it. I'm definitely underpaid for what I bring to the table. There were hints from him and the owner that maybe I won't have to wait the whole 6 months for a raise. We'll see. So, I guess I'm off to bed so I can work on getting my portfolio online tomorrow. I really need to $$$ coming in.

I'm wide awake at 4:30 am, so here are some cool quotes I found over at ThinkExist.com:

Hi Everyone! Did you miss me?

Sorry about being MIA, but I've had a lot on my mind. I've been doing a lot of thinking about how I've gotten to where I am in life and how to get where I really want to be. Don't misunderstand, I don't have a bad life—I'm just not where I thought I'd be by now. I am not realizing my full potential. Someone as gifted and smart as I shouldn't be making $25,000/yr. In fact, this is the least amount of money I've made in a long time. I also shouldn't be living in a mobile home park. I can't blame anybody but myself. I've made every choice that has me where I am. I'm learning a lot about how one's thoughts keeps one stuck. Not just emotionally and mentally, but physically, as well. For instance, no matter what I eat or what amount of exercise I get, I've been stuck at the same weight for a long time.

Somewhere deep in my subconscious I keep myself exactly where I am now. Letting go of pizza was a huge step, but I keep dreaming that I've gone back to work there. I even toyed with the idea of delivering pizzas again because I'm dead broke right now. My final student loan kicks in next month and I don't even have money for food right now. Don't know where another $200+ is going to come from. Top it off with owing taxes this year. No wonder I'm seeking the security of the familiar. Turns out it might be chemically programmed into my very cells to keep wanting to suffer at a pizza job since I did it so long.

I watched an interesting movie yesterday called "What the #$*! Do We Know!?". A coworker suggested it as it pertains to a lot of the mind over matter type of thinking I've been exploring lately. It was so interesting, in fact, that I watched it again this morning. They even have a website at whatthebleep.com. I'm not taking things said in the movie as gospel, but they touched on things I've heard and pondered before. I've loved listening to Dr. Michio Kaku talk about quantum physics on Coast to Coast AM with Art Bell and on The Screensavers on TechTv. Even though most of the theories are way over my head, it definitely gives me a lot to think about.

The movie referenced the work of a Japanese researcher named Masaru Emoto that studied the effects of human vibrational energy, thoughts, words, ideas and music on the molecular structure of water. Postive thoughts and words produced a totally different crystalline structure in the water than negative ones. Extemely fascinating, considering the human body is composed of mostly water. Deep stuff, I tell you.

So, the whole point of all of this is: I'm tired of being stuck living in my box. I'm beginning an experiment of growth and enlightenment. In a year, I want to be in a totally different place (physically and mentally). I'll keep you guys up to speed on how that is going.

Speaking of being poor, it has done one thing for me—my kitchen cabinets are practically bare. Marcus and I have been eating food that has been in there for a couple of years (or more). I know the bag of elbow macaroni I ate one night had been purchased before we moved back to Aurora over three years ago. *sigh* Since my performance review is over 3.5 months away, I've got to start bringing in more cash in other ways. Things are going up on eBay and I'm starting my design business. I keep saying I'll start it when I get new business cards, I'll get a new mac first, I'll be ready when              . I can't wait anymore. There is really no good reason why I have put it off. I'm scared. I won't find clients. I won't make any money. Bah! I'm good at this and people will pay me. I just have to find them. This next week I'm going to work on getting my business site and portfolio up on the web. Meanwhile, if anybody you know needs some graphic design work done, let me know!!!!!

OK, enough of this for now. I've got some housecleaning to do and a movie from a coworker I need to watch.

Edited: The movie was State of Grace and it SUCKED!

Marcus had the web server down for upgrades for most of the weekend and I had all of this stuff I kept thinking I wish I could post. Now that the server is back, I can't remember a single one of those things. *sigh*

I saw a cool video on VH1 Classic yesterday. It was DMC's (featuring Sarah McLachlan) "Just Like Me." Sarah sings "Cats in the Cradle" behind DMC rapping about being adopted. I need to get that song. There is a weird remix of it on iTunes, but I'll try to find the version they had on the tv. I wonder if it will be on iTunes eventually.

I had lunch with my friend from Platt yesterday at Panera. I IM with her at work occasionally, but it was good to see her in person. I really cut myself off from all of my friends. I decided I needed to start being more social.

Now that I can't really bitch about how much I hate my job, I don't have a heck of a lot to post anymore. I'm slowly trying to rebuild the shambles that all of that depression and self-loathing I had back at the end of last year created in my life. I'm eating better, getting more sleep, generally taking better care of myself. I can't hardly eat fast food anymore. We went to A&W for dinner last night and the chili cheese fries and root beer float actually made me feel kind of ill. I don't drink pop hardly anymore at all.

I decided that I have to make my dream of doing freelance design work a reality. I need more income coming in NOW. I also don't know if I'm going to stay at my current job for the long term because if I don't get a substantial pay increase at my six-month review, I can't continue to work there. I knew I was going to have to take entry-level pay to start, but I'm worth a whole lot more than that. This place also has no benefits package whatsoever and the drive SUCKS (even with carpooling). We'll see.

Well, guess I need to go. Marcus is still doing web server stuff and I need to post this before I lose it.