Domestic Geek

To say I'm frustrated would be an understatement. WTF? When did this area get so devoid of the need for graphic designers? When did employers decide it was OK to pay $10–12/hr. for the ones they do need? Even the listings on Craigslist for people offering services is getting longer. That tells me there are more and more unemployed designers trying to pimp their services freelance. I wish I could move away from here—go someplace where the cost of living is lower and graphic designer jobs are plentiful. If we didn't have this stupid mobile home tying us down and Marcus hadn't just gotten a new job, I'd seriously consider leaving.

OK, so here's my horoscope from this morning:



The universe is trying to give me signs.

What do I want to do with my life? This morning, I'm not so sure. Why can't I be happy with a 9-5 Monday-Friday gig? What is it about me that knows I can achieve more, I just can't figure out how? Why can't I zero in on one thing and get really awesomely good at it instead of having many interests, but am only ok at all of them? Why can't I believe in a god or higher power?

OK, I"m a little better now. Power just went out for a bit and there was a big old thunder boom. Thank goodness for battery backups on the old computer here. At least I made it home before the rain today. It was just starting as I got to Arapahoe Road. I got caught in some torrential downpours on Wednesday, though. It cracked me up because while I'm sitting in my car in a parking lot off the Castle Pines Parkway exit waiting out the worst of it (I don't enjoy hydroplaning), I hear Kathy Sabine say in one of her little prerecorded snippets that there'll be thunder and lightening that evening, but no rain. HA! Yeah, must be rough to be wrong so often and still keep a job.

Anyway, now that I'm calmer, I'll finish up with what I was writing when I was at work.

The Renaissance Festival kicks off tomorrow. It's been interesting watching the progress of things getting set up over the last couple of weeks. There sure are some interesting human beings who do that kind of stuff. Why can't my boss get me passes to something like that? Marcus won't go, but I would if it didn't cost so darned much.

The 4400 is back starting on Sunday. They've been playing a show on USA, Sci-Fi and Bravo called "The 4400 Special: Unlocking the Secrets," which is more or less a recap of the series thus far. A good idea, because I had forgot alot of what happened before. The Dead Zone starts the Sunday after next and Monk comes back on July 7th. It's kind of cool that USA Network has their new shows in a different rotation that the other networks, but it also sucks when you miss shows because you forget that the season started. It's that way with South Park, too. I'd never know there were new shows if Mike didn't tell us.

I was witness to some pretty nasty road rage the other day on I-25. Some dude in a gray Jeep Grand Cherokee was pissed that these Mexican dudes in a truck were going under the speed limit in the left lane, so he passes me on the right (three lane road, I was in the middle lane), buzzes the front of my car to shoot all the way across three lanes of traffic so that he can get in front of the truck and slam on his brakes. Then he is going under the speed limit and making all these hand gestures. I kept going the speed limit and moved over to the right just in case he caused an accident. I had my cell ready to call the CSP when they passed me so I could get the license plate number. Well, the dude in front decided to go 90 and the truck was tailgating. I couldn't get the plate number and I should've called anyway, but I didn't . I just let them get far ahead. These types of incidents are only going to get more frequent. In addition to the normal stupid traffic, now we have the summer motorhomes to deal with. There was not one day this week where I could stay at the speed limit. Joy.

Well, that's a good bit of my news of the week.

Pissed at myself, that is.

I'm sick and tired of settling for less than I deserve because I won't stand up for myself. I have more intelligence and more design sense than most of my office, but I'm the least paid. I passed on a raise because stupid me thought I could find another job right away. Should've kept my stupid mouth shut about wanting to leave until I actually had another job lined up. I'm finishing this dumb database and getting the hell out.