Domestic Geek

Have you ever had one of those a-ha moments after a dream?

I had a pretty significant one this morning. In fact, I woke up crying and once I got into the shower, I let the waterworks flow. I'm not going to share the details as they are kind of private and not really significant to anyone but me, but the fact that I was repressing some major emotions and memories is. I've been trying to figure out why and when I went from just fat to obese. The fat is a result of not eating right my whole life, but the obesity was trying to hide and smother something. My subconscious finally got through as to what that was. I've been doing this to myself since late high school/early college (late 80s). I've been trying to hide this from myself for over 20 years. It's when I started becoming promiscuous. It's when I stopped taking my music as seriously as I should have. It's when I started losing confidence in myself, started making choices that I knew weren't in my best interest and really started hating myself.

Now that I realize the why, maybe I can finally get over it and move on.

I took a couple of hour nap this afternoon because I only got about five hours of sleep last night. I'm already dreaming of preflighting files! Now I'm beginning to understand the deep annoyance that prepress people have with designers. I realized that in almost two weeks of doing this, I've only had one file that had no problems. It's mostly lame stuff, like low resolution images, using registration black for text, RGB color spaces and low resolution transparency...all stuff that anybody that goes to design school is told to watch out for. I'm seriously annoyed by people that send incomplete files. Why bother sending a document where half the pages missing? *sigh* It's all part of the job, though. I'm not going to let myself get super annoyed with it. That's not my job, that's the prepress manager's. I can only do what I can, right? Now, if I could just be full time...

The nap put a crimp in the video plans. After running a couple of errands with Marcus, it was dark when we got home. Oh, well. There's always tomorrow.

OK, got Marcus' pilgrim image finally done. Still haven't worked on my site. I'm uninspired at the moment.

I'm gonna go finish watching the Broncos/Charger game.

I need to finish Marcus' graphics I promised him. I'm having a really hard time with this one and I don't know why. Grrr. I also need to work on a new layout for me and find a template for my weight-loss blog. I've had absolutely no luck finding the one I had seen that I really liked (was probably a custom, not-free one anyway).

I'm trying to decide if I should dump the Thursday Thirteen meme. Even finishing on Wednesday night isn't getting me a whole lot of visitors and I certainly don't have time now that I'm employed to surf around to other participant's sites. It was a real chore to get it done this week and it wasn't all that interesting. Maybe I'll try to do one once a month or so if I'm feeling really inspired. I have to think on this.

OK, I've got to head off to the store. Marcus wants french toast for breakfast and we have no bread.

It's going to be non-stop for me today. I just printed a bunch of online coupons because after work, Dad and I are doing the bulk of the Thanksgiving shopping. I also have that two-hour premiere of Medium to watch tonight. Yay! I've got a graphic in progress for Marcus' website to finish, I need to send off a part-time job app after I finish updating my resume and write a cover letter. I've got three loads of laundry that need to be put away. I need to put a couple of things on eBay, too. Have a good Thursday, everybody!

OK, I'm feeling much better than yesterday. In addition to feeling kind of stupid, I felt a little sick, as well. I got plenty of rest yesterday, went to bed rather early for me and felt loads better today. So much so that I was really in a cleaning mood this morning. I was a little sad that I had to go to work because I really wished I could've taken advantage of it. Oh, well. Marcus smarted off that it was because I hate my job already. Quite the contrary. Anyway, I'm here at the old workplace helping Marcus rearrange and clean up his office. Looks like a tornado hit it. lol I hope some of the cleaning mood is around by the time I get home.