Domestic Geek

Current mood: depressed
While working on a layout for my craft blog that I've been trying to get going for almost a year last night, I logged into Blogger for the heck of it. I found a personal improvement blog that I had about 2 1/2 years ago. It floored me that my personal goals/resolutions were EXACTLY the same two years ago as today. I haven't grown, I haven't matured, I haven't achieved much in that time frame. It's like I've been totally stagnate or something. I had counted on the move back to town giving me the kick I needed to change. True, I've been going to school and learning lots there, but that's about it. I weigh just 4 pounds less than I did then, I still have the same job that I absolutely hate, it's really sad.

Oh, well. I'd better get my ass off to work. I've got much to do today.

Current mood: apathetic
Sorry I've sort of disappeared this week. I've been contemplating how to change the trainwreck that has become my life. My life has felt so blah this week. Everytime I opened my browser and tried to type something here, it was so depressing that I just closed the window and went to surfing around other people's sites. I did start a 204 for 2004 list as seen at Delirious Cool, though. If I ever finish it, I'll post it. Man, coming up with 204 specific goals of things I want to accomplish in this next year is harder than the "100 Things About Me" list that everyone did awhile back.

We're back to no sales at work again and drivers are frustrated. I made a whopping $56 all week. I used to make that in one good night. Yeah, that's really going to buy me the stuff I need for this class. Plus, dough I've made is getting thrown out because it's been sitting around too long so I basically worked for free when I made it. It's all really depressing. At least my portfolio/resume will be completed in some form or another in four weeks and then maybe I can get some interviews and get away from pizza forever.

I've been on eBay trying to find the stuff I need for this class. So far I've gotten a 100 pack of x-acto blades for $9.99 that would've cost $22.50 at Office Depot or $27.99 at Guiry's. Then I found a cyan printhead for my printer for $13.00 that would've cost $34 at CompUsa. I lost an auction that went for $41 on a complete set of ink for my printer, but I'm still looking. Each individual ink cartridge costs $34 as well at CompUsa (that's $136 for a complete set). Some guy is selling a set of 3 HP compatible colors (no black) for $49.99. I'm a little wary. I'd feel better with OEM cartridges. I also need to find some good printer paper. Once I find or make a portfolio case, I think I'm all done with the shopping part. LOL

I did get myself a mini trampline at Sears a couple of days ago for $20. I put it together and jumped on it a while this morning. Man, I am sooooo out of shape. Less than five minutes and I was totally winded and all noodley-legged. I know one of my biggest problems is how much weight I've let myself gain.

OK, that wasn't as depressing as some of the stuff I've typed this week, so I guess I'll post it and get myself off to that hellhole called work.

Current mood: relieved
Man, these new birth control pills I'm on suck ass. On my last prescription, 3 to 4 days after the last pill, period started. These new ones take 5 to 6 days. Let me tell you, I was a little panicky yesterday. I was never so glad to feel a cramp as I was this morning. I wish I could take that Seasonale pill. It's the one where you have 84 consecutive pills before you take a week off. Since there is no way to turn off the reproductive stuff for good without surgery, I could deal with only four periods a year. I'll ask how much it costs when I go in for my annual later this month, but I doubt I can afford it.

Current mood: melancholy
I was browsing around Meininger Art Supply today for stuff I need for my class. I wish I money to buy paints and an easel and had a place where I could just get totally messy and not care if I dripped paint on me and on the floor. I mean, I have my craft room, but it has carpet and not a whole lot of room to fling paint around. There is also no room for an easel.

I wish I could take a leave of absence from school again. The class I'm currently taking involves putting a portfolio together. Unfortunately, that takes money. Lots of money. I don't happen to have any. I spent $70 alone yesterday and today (all I can spare at the moment). That only began to put a dent in what I need to spend. I asked for 5 days this week at work to make as much money as possible, but I guess since everyone is back from holiday vacations, it isn't to be. That totally sucks. I still need to buy or build a portfolio case, get some good paper, get ink for my printer and pay to have some of the pieces professionally printed. I really don't see how this is going to happen. What really sucks is we haven't begun anything. I was really looking forward to this class being at this time because we had the two week break to work on stuff. Well, the teacher missed the first two classes and then we were given the supply list in the third class. I could've worked on tweaking some of my work, but I worked alot over the break and didn't really have time. Oh, well. I'll have time this week since I won't be working as much. *sigh*

Well, I guess I'd better get to bed.

Current mood: busy
I've got sooooo much to do today. I've got a couple of friends coming over after I get off work tonight to help me break in the fondue pot I got for my birthday and to usher in the new year. This is one year I am not going to miss one bit. I feel a little like I've stagnated this past year. I made less money, gained more weight, acquired more debt. *sigh*