Domestic Geek

I'm glad that I still have a few readers left. Thanks to those that commented AND...

Thanks to Colleen for alerting me to the problem that nobody could comment. When I upgraded Expression Engine, apparently I needed to change the path to the captcha images from a relative one to a full server path. Who knew? Since I never bothered to log out to see what regular visitors see, I wasn't aware there was a problem. Sorry.

Now, on to the post (WARNING - WOE AHEAD):

I'll be honest here — life has been pretty much blowing for me lately. The new position at work sucks much ass. Twelve hour shifts and working weekends stink no matter what job you're doing. I no longer trust any of my supervisors/owners/managers. We will no longer have full paid benefits as of October 1st. I've got a bad attitude and now I need to do my least favorite thing in the world: job hunt. My brakes need fixing. I dont' have the energy to do housework. Our last rabbit, Neo, died recently and now my hamster will probably be dead by the time I get home from work. I really miss having dogs, but promised myself I wouldn't get any while we still live here. The area we are living in is getting scarier and more depressing by the day. I slept a grand total of 4 hours last night because my insomnia is back full force.

I've been trying to suck it up and not complain here so as not to have the "Blog of Woe" as Marcus so lovingly referred to it, but it is what it is.

It really hit me yesterday at work as I was bawling my eyes out in front of all my coworkers and struggling with every ounce of my being not to grab my purse and walk out the door that I need to change this. I've been telling myself that if I can only hang on until X, Y and Z, then I'll figure out something else to do. Why? Obviously, my situation now is not working. Why is it so hard for me to find a better opportunity? I'm smart and talented, why am I wasting those being unhappy and miserable? Except for the fact that I continue to put up with it all, I deserve so much more from my life than this.

It's a good thing today is only a half day at work. I've got a lot of things I need to do and set in motion while my ire is up. I just know I can't keep going on like this...I'm not really living.

AHOY, THERE!

ARRRR! Heave, Ho, Ye Mateys! It be Talk Like A Pirate Day!

How will this lass be celebratin' such a fine and proud day? I'll be doin' what any self-respectin' Pirate does on such o' fine day...knittin' with me pointy sticks and yaarrrrrrn! I'll be wearin' ye ol' Skull 'n' Crossbones and also be raisin?? me bottle o?? rum (or glass o' sweet tea, as t' case may be) in Pirate's honour this evenin??!

Lay yer eyes upon the video in t' extended. It's a right pleasin' tribute to t' day, to be sure!

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I need to know.

Does anybody actually read this thing anymore?

From the widgets in my sidebar, I'm guessing not, but they don't get people that read from feeds, who aren't members of those sites and such. I know paid blogging turned a lot of my old readers off and they left. Then I ran out of things to say and I think the rest left. If there is nobody else out there other than a few IRL friends and my dad, I need to know.

So, would you leave a comment if you read this blog, please?

Thanks to Google Alerts, I found another "Domestic Geek" blog. This person has found some pretty cool things to share, so go check out another Domestic Geek. (We're going to take over the world!)

Oddly enough, I'm being neither Domestic or Geeky lately. OK, still knitting and stuff, so a little domestic. I still haven't finished coding this site. My 101 Things in 1001 Days site is atrocious! I found a neat Wordpress theme that I'd like to try to make work, but don't have the energy. I bought myself a new mouse for my birthday last week that is still sitting in its box. I want to sew. I want to scrapbook. I want to draw. I want to bake. I even want to clean my house. I just don't have the energy. I blame work.

Work is literally draining the life out of me. I'm on my feet 12-14 hours a day doing manual labor. It's not even work I enjoy doing. I've lost all respect for my superiors. I was actually told my my main supervisor the other day that my standards are too high and I need to quit expecting so much out of others. Really? Is it too much that we have guidelines as to how things are supposed to be done and I expect other employees to do things right? Whatever happened to expecting more and people will rise to the challenge? It isn't like we've been particularly busy and people have more than ample time to double check their work. There is absolutely no consequences for those employees that do a half-assed job and jack stuff up. Some days I'm amazed we're still in business with all the stuff that gets screwed up. <sarcasm>I guess I'm out of line.</sarcasm> Also, I don't have time to cook healthy meals for half the week, so I end up eating crap late at night. My insomnia is back. My feet hurt so bad some days I can barely walk. I know I need to find something else to do with my life, I just don't know what yet.

OK, that's not true. I do know what I want, I just don't know how to get there.

So, I realized two nights ago that my knitting and crocheting supplies are officially out of control. I'm starting to avoid going into my craft/computer room because I don't want to face that mess. I also can't find things. I know I bought a set of size 0 bamboo DPNs to make a Harry Potter bookmark that I need right now can't find anywhere. I'll be darned if I'm going to spend good money on new ones. I have several skeins of yarn sitting around that I bought with a purpose in mind, but now have no idea what that purpose was. Every time I go into my craft room, I cause skeins of yarn fall to the floor. I also have lost the Chibi needles I purchased. I still have the case, but the needles are nowhere to be found (shhh, don't tell Marcus — he hates it when I lose pointy metal objects. They usually find their way to his hand).

It's time to get this stuff in order. No more new yarn until I find a way to organize my current stash, including what project it is meant for. My hooks and needles need a permanent home and I need to catalog them on Ravelry. I just bought a duplicate hook the other day because I couldn't find one in the size I knew I had to have had, but it's probably hiding with another project or just somewhere it shouldn't be.

I realized that the totes of my acrylic yarn (that I rarely use) is taking up valuable space in my craft shelving. I think I'll relegate those to the closet and store the new yarn in that space. Maybe I'll actually be able to get to my embroidery machine and my work surface and get some quilting and embroidery done.

I deal with enough nonsense and chaos at work everyday. I shouldn't allow it at home in my "me" time. My crafting is what usually brings me peace and saves my sanity. Right now, not so much.