Domestic Geek

OK, I got the following email joke today. Please don't take offense as I'm not being racist. It's a funny joke.

The Chinese Wedding Night

A young Chinese couple gets married. She's a virgin. Truth be told, he is a virgin too, but she doesn't know that.

On their wedding night, she cowers naked under the sheets as her husband undresses in the darkness. He climbs into bed next to her and tries to be reassuring.

"My darring," he whispers, "I know dis your firss time and you berry frighten. I pomise you, I give you anyting you want, I do anyting - juss anyting you want. You juss ask... So... Whatchu want?" he says, trying to sound experienced and worldly, which he hopes will impress her.

A thoughtful silence follows and he waits patiently (and eagerly for her request. She eventually shyly whispers back, "I want to try something I have heard about from other gurls... Numbaa 69."

More thoughtful silence, this time from him.

Eventually, in a puzzled tone he asks her. "You want... Garlic Chicken with steam vegetable?"

I bought myself the greatest little alarm clock at Wal-Mart a couple of weeks ago. It has an internal battery like a computer that keeps the time while the unit is off, such as in cases of power failure, unplugging, etc. The computer chip also takes into account for daylight savings and such. There are dual alarms so that I can have a Monday-Friday work alarm and then a separate weekend alarm. It's also got a radio in it and a huge display. All in all, not too shabby for around $20.

Here's the problem, though.

Even though it has a dimmer function, the display is still really freakin' bright. Now, not being one to like lots of light when I sleep, it's a little annoying. I was thinking that maybe I could put a piece of window tint on it to cut back the glow, but I don't happen to have any scraps of that around. Going and purchasing a kit just to do a small clock is a huge waste of money since I was so happy to get this clock so cheap. Figures that the guy I used to know that did this for part time work moved to Kansas and I no longer have contact with him.

Does anyone reading this have a scrap of window tint that they'd send me? PLEASE?!!

Did you know that I bought DomesticGeek.com a few months ago? I still haven't done jack with it. I had every intention of using that for blogathon this year, but we all know that didn't materialize. I want to make it the place I blog without paid ads. I know that's weird, since paid blogging is what is keeping me afloat, but it would be nice to have someplace to just rant and write and not have to worry about what an advertiser will see or if I have enough content or whatever, y'know?

I also had every intention of making this weekend a blog work weekend, but we got really busy and really behind at work, so I'm working tomorrow and on Monday to get all that extra cash. Should help put a dent in what I need for Vegas. I've got 3 web sites and several subdomains of this one that really need some TLC, but I've been so not into it. I really need to get working on my graphic design site so that I can actively pursue getting clients. I'm really going to do that this time. I was so ready to just chuck it all and go back to pizza the other day. Thankfully a new day and a cooler head prevailed and I talked myself out of that, but I do need more income coming in and a creative outlet to boot. I'll let you all know when that is ready (hopefully Sunday?). In the mean time, though, if you need graphic design or blog coding work done, feel free to comment here. I'd love to help!

I'm feeling a bit lost and lonely and I don't know what I'm doing that creates this. Except for Marcus, I don't have any real live friends. I have acquaintances, but no true friends. I have some friends on the Internet, but they can't come hang out with me. I don't know why I can't connect or stay connected to people. Most people my age have kids and I can't relate to them. I'm always the odd man out, the last to be chosen, if I'm even remembered at all. Lately all those old high school memories of being left out have come flooding back and I'm hurting. I try to reach out to people and I'm ignored. I feel invisible once again.

It's when I feel like this that I realize why I'm 300 pounds, my finances are a joke and my house is a mess. I don't have the will to do anything about any of this because "why bother?" Nobody is around to notice anyway. I'm just the reliable girl that does her job, doesn't make waves and exists in the background.

I know that part of this is that I don't know where my passion lies. If I found something to participate in that I was passionate about, I would find people like me. I've spent so much of my life being what I thought I was supposed to be that I really don't know what I want.